Fate.

Ive always believed that everything happens for a reason. Every person you meet has a purpose that may change your life forever. Every place you go to is the place where you're supposed to be at that right time. So as I was sitting down in my bed last night, trying to think of what is happening around me, I told myself...Aya, its meant to happen.

My Tito died the other day. I think its the 4th or 5th death in the family. It's sad how this kind of event brings the whole clan together. I sat on the corner of the funeral home observing people coming in and out, listening to their stories and envying my uncle who was lying there, not seeing or hearing what all these people are blabbing about. I just wanted to tell them that he didn't die because he wanted to, he died because he's already done with his mission here on earth and God has asked him back to join Him. Whatever that mission was, i guess no one will never know.

Since I'm a Facebook junkie, I read most of the updates before I go to bed or in the morning, while I'm having my coffee and cigarette. But, the other day, I read a status that pricked my heart. The person who I cared about so much is about to go away for good. This person helped me go through so much when I was broken hearted. This person  made me realize that life always has to go on, no matter what. That is how this person affected me. Maybe because we shared a bond no one will understand. Maybe we were both getting through the same thing. If only I can tell this person how much I appreciated everything and that ill be forever thankful...but its too late, i guess. Its just the way it should be.

Its raining again. how funny how life plays a trick on you. i was having second thoughts of leaving my umbrella home this morning. But because I changed my bag, it has a space to put it inside. So, I'm going home dry...Yey!

What I'm trying to say is, life is not predictable. You'll never know what the results of your choices are. No one can predict how your day will go. You will go some place and meet the right person for you. You might open your mail and receive bad news. You can bump to anyone, anywhere. You will see people from your past in the most ironic places. You will answer a phone call from a stranger and find out that you have common friends. You can never plan your life. You take it day by day. Live it like its your last. And thank God for everything and everyone who will leave a mark in your heart and a space in your memory.

Wrong Impressions

People are naturally judgemental and assuming. Whatever one person does or how she/he walks, talks, dresses or whatever, others will always have, most of the time, the wrong impression. I've been going through this most of my life and sometimes, its gets tiring to always prove them wrong.

If I wear really short skirts and low-cut blouses, doesn't mean I am slut. I'm just more comfortable in these clothes.

If I smile at you and you are a stranger, it doesnt mean I want to hook up with you. I am very friendly. I love meeting new people.

If I am not smiling early in the morning, it doesnt mean Im like that the whole day. I always change my mood as the day goes by.

If I am online all day doesnt mean im not doing my job. I did. I actually finished everything that I need to do.

If you did something wrong and you've hurt me very much, but I still talk to you, it doesnt mean I didnt forget what you did. I forgive, but i never forget.

If I get mad at you and make everything about you a big deal, it doesnt mean I'm jealous of what you are doing with your life. It means I care about you.

If I dont take time to see my friends or attend reunions doesnt mean I'm just making excuses. I'm a very busy person. I need to have time to just hang-out.

If I dont act my age, it doesnt mean im not mature. I'm just a child at heart.

If I start losing weight and eat less doesnt mean Im doing this for somebody else. NO. I'm doing it for myself. Both sides of my family has diabetes. I'm just taking care of myself.

If I look good, its because I feel good. I usually look how i feel.

If you are my ex, and I ask you to have coffee with me, it doesnt mean i wanna get back with you. I just wanna catch up. I always consider my exes, freinds.

If you text me, Ill text you back, If you think its a form of flirting, its not. I dont use technology to flirt. I do the real thing.

If I get loud, it doesnt mean I dont have breeding. I am a certified  party-girl. I always have major fun everytime I get the chance.

so there. ask. dont assume.